You are so important to me, I regret not letting you know…

& this is how i feel.


life is really bad for me this week,
my grandma past away,
ive not been sleeping properly.
im being very very emo.
im sad. very sad.
the only good thing is that when i eat, i do not puke anymore. it lasted for like 1 week only luh.
so yeap, im not dying i guess.
you know what is so f-ed up?
my blog has like how many readers..
and everytime i wanna blog about something,
like how i feel and stuffs.
i cant.
this whole 3 weeks.
BAD.
i miss school.
i need to keep myself busy.
was w jo,yuchang&javier just now.
forced them to walked all th way t christchurch sec from admir. HAHA
we slacked there like WHAT SINCE 1?
just came home @ 6-7am.
hehehe. ciao.

I Don’t Know How To Love Him
What to do how to move him
I’ve been changed yes really changed
In these past few days when I’ve seen myself
I seem like someone else

I don’t know how to take this
I don’t see why he moves me
He’s a man he’s just a man
And I’ve had so many men before
In very many ways
He’s just one more

Should I bring him down should I scream and shout
Should I speak of love let my feelings out
I never thought I’d come to this — what’s it all about

Don’t you think it’s rather funny
I should be in this position
I’m the one who’s always been
So calm so cool, no lover’s fool
Running every show
He scares me so

I never thought I’d come to this — what’s it all about
Yet if he said he loved me
I’d be lost I’d be frightened
I couldn’t cope just couldn’t cope
I’d turn my head I’d back away
I wouldn’t want to know
He scares me so
I want him so
I love him so