the tone of my voice was just a lie

Rooster – Deep And Meaningless –

I, I don’t know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don’t know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why….
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today
I’ll say that I’m fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It’s just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I’d do it again to relive what we had
Damn that’s sad

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can’t leave behind me

Hey sup everyone, Its 435am. HOORAY & guess what,yes i’m still awake.
So i woke up at 8pm and went out of home at 2am and now I’m at macs with Jocelyn.
Anyway, I’m really bored. I just finish a macwings meal.
WELLLLLLDOOOONNE CELESTE, you’re gonna be x12398712 times fattter.
You know my tummy is the ultimate now plus my arms are really fat now.
I neeeeeeedddd to stop eating. :’(
Anyway, I can’t wait for newwwssyeaaarrrs!
I think I’m becoming like Nicole, I used to scold her because she’s forever listening to party songs while I’m the emo kinddddd, I’ll listening to my norah jones… But now, after partying 247, I really cant stand emo songs.. Like.. it makes me emo :\
& Ive been listening to my “noisy” folder in my itunes. Whao.
& I can’t stand watching romantic movies.. that is why I decided not to watch twilight.
Because like.. I hate love, I hate being romantic, I hate loving someone, I hate having a boyfriend.
Is like, I feel that I’ve change. 360.
Is like, I used to be damn romantic and all… like make gifts for my boyfriend, always loving them or whatever shit lah. But now -.- occasions or whatever, I don’t bother doing anything for admires/boyfriends or whatever. WHAT A WASTE OF TIME, I MIGHT AS WELL GO SHOPPING. SHEESH!

Is like I feel, from my first relationship, (serious ones):D, I was childish and so bitchy, I hurt him so much, den off t mr second bf, i decided to change but he had to hurt me so nevermind, i found my number 3 <3
the one i loved the most and NO ONE can replace him. But He had to eff things up
and den the later part, i effed it up.
Then the next one, Aiya I also don’t know what to say anymore. Is like I feel that Love is not important at all.
Boys are rubbish.
Or maybe is just because Ive got hurt so much?
Yeah i guess so.